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My First time on a Roller Coaster

My First time on a Roller Coaster

 

I took my sweet girl to get a pedicure tonight, I wanted to do something special with her before school started back up again.  She is 9 and starts the 4th grade on Monday, and with 4th grade come a lot of questions.  Question like, “When can I start shaving my legs?”, “When can I have a boyfriend?”, “When can I start wearing makeup?”, “When can I highlight my hair?”…. all exciting questions for her as she looks forward to growing up just a little bit more.

But, for me…well, it triggers something that’s not quite excitement.  My chest begins to tighten, my heart rate begins to quicken, I can feel sweat beading up my forehead as my breathing becomes shallow.  I am feeling sheer and utter panic.  How could this have happened?  I feel much like she probably did this summer when I took her on her very first BIG roller coaster.  I remember sitting next to her, and asking her if she was ready much like she’s asking me now with all of her questions.  All I hear is, “Are you ready, mom?”

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And again, I sound much like she did on that roller coaster.  “No, no I am not ready!” “Is it too late to get off of this thing?” “I think I can wait until next year.” “I think I’m going to be sick!”,  “Please put me back on the ground…” you know, right wear I am safe in the land of single digits.

Yep, I sound just like her, because this is my first time on this roller coaster.  She probably even said a quick prayer in her head as we reached the top of that first hill of that roller coaster, much like I am right now.

“Dear God,  (click, click, click)

Please help me get through this.  (clickety, clack)

I am so scared, and I need you right now. (click….click)

Surround me with your angels–because I think I am for sure going to need a few. (cliiiiccck)

Ok, ok. I promise to read my Bible every single day if you just let us both live through this……”

So, here I sit at the top of this roller coaster hill, holding on for dear life, wishing like crazy I could just get off of this thing, climb back down and snuggle in bed all day with my sweet little girl.  But, just like that ruthless roller coaster,  I can’t.  There is no turning back.

Ready or not.

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This is her right before she got on the roller coaster. 😉

 

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