My First time on a Roller Coaster

 

I took my sweet girl to get a pedicure tonight, I wanted to do something special with her before school started back up again.  She is 9 and starts the 4th grade on Monday, and with 4th grade come a lot of questions.  Question like, “When can I start shaving my legs?”, “When can I have a boyfriend?”, “When can I start wearing makeup?”, “When can I highlight my hair?”…. all exciting questions for her as she looks forward to growing up just a little bit more.

But, for me…well, it triggers something that’s not quite excitement.  My chest begins to tighten, my heart rate begins to quicken, I can feel sweat beading up my forehead as my breathing becomes shallow.  I am feeling sheer and utter panic.  How could this have happened?  I feel much like she probably did this summer when I took her on her very first BIG roller coaster.  I remember sitting next to her, and asking her if she was ready much like she’s asking me now with all of her questions.  All I hear is, “Are you ready, mom?”

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And again, I sound much like she did on that roller coaster.  “No, no I am not ready!” “Is it too late to get off of this thing?” “I think I can wait until next year.” “I think I’m going to be sick!”,  “Please put me back on the ground…” you know, right wear I am safe in the land of single digits.

Yep, I sound just like her, because this is my first time on this roller coaster.  She probably even said a quick prayer in her head as we reached the top of that first hill of that roller coaster, much like I am right now.

“Dear God,  (click, click, click)

Please help me get through this.  (clickety, clack)

I am so scared, and I need you right now. (click….click)

Surround me with your angels–because I think I am for sure going to need a few. (cliiiiccck)

Ok, ok. I promise to read my Bible every single day if you just let us both live through this……”

So, here I sit at the top of this roller coaster hill, holding on for dear life, wishing like crazy I could just get off of this thing, climb back down and snuggle in bed all day with my sweet little girl.  But, just like that ruthless roller coaster,  I can’t.  There is no turning back.

Ready or not.

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This is her right before she got on the roller coaster. 😉

 

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8 thoughts on “My First time on a Roller Coaster

  1. Whoa, too much to read first thing in the morning! I’m getting all chocked up reading this, feeling the same way about my kids now 10 and 12. Growing up way too fast! Wishing your daughter much luck on her first day of school this year!

  2. I totally know the feeling….it is super scary, and to think that the ride just goes on and on and gets faster and faster is even scarier. Whew…I’m right there with ya.

  3. What a wonderful post. I love all the photos and I can so relate to your thoughts. Madison is entering her second year of college and as my youngest child, this seems so surreal to me. Enjoy your beautiful family. God Bless you all.

  4. OMGosh your post brought me back… my daughter is 25.
    I just have to say be there for her. And listen.
    Appreciate that she is asking those questions because she is after all inviting you on this special ride with her.
    This is a wonderfully magical and a wee bit scary time of life for you both.
    Let her have control of those things you are okay with and hang tight on those you are not.
    Let her know why some are okay and why some need to wait some to happen.
    She really does want your guidance even if it doesn’t always appear so.
    Expect there to be a few bumpy spots along the way.
    Remember these are normal as she grows into the young lady you have raised her to be.
    Sending hugs your way.
    D~
    DesignsByDragonfly.blogspot

  5. Lost of tear as I was reading your post Sarah… I feel the same way!!!
    Sometimes I feel lost and with no easy answers that can help me (us)… Then, I turn to my Lord and give Him all I have, all I’m …trusting Him…
    You are not along on this experience dear Sarah…

    Blessings, 🙂

    Gina Lindsey
    California

  6. Totally made me tear up! I’m feeling much the same way, as my oldest baby girl is about to start preschool. Stop it, time! Slow down! I just keep reminding myself that even though it feels so fast to me, it’s not too fast for her.

  7. OMG Sarah…. that is exactly what I’m feeling today as Jazmine starts her first day of high school:'( Thank You for sharing such a sweet moment and beautiful pictures of you and your princess:) HUGS!

  8. Despite not having kids of my own first, I’m already thinking ahead to not wanting the future babies to grow up so fast! I can’t imagine what you’re feeling, but I love that you wrote it down and documented it 🙂

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